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Realignment

I recently found myself thinking a lot about this blog. I engaged in a self-dialogue that went a little like this;

Why did I start this blog?  I wanted to contribute in a meaningful way. That’s the short and to the point answer.

And the long, in-depth answer? I began this blog at a time in my life when I was being expose to many things that had never before been present in my life. I felt like I was learning and experiencing new things on a regular basis and I wanted to find a way to pass it on to others.

Why a blog? It seemed like the obvious answer. First of all, the Internet knows no boundaries and makes information über accessible to the masses. Furthermore, writing is something I have always enjoyed. Even though writing has never been something that’s come easy to me, I figured it would be a process that would be enjoyable while still being challenging.

What exactly were you planning on contributing? Inspiration.

And how were you planning on doing that? Well, I thought I would write about the everyday things I was coming across that were inspiring me to think, do and feel worthwhile things.

“Worthwhile things”? Yes, you know… those things in life that enrich your existence and add value to who you are as an individual.

Okay. Do you feel like you have accomplished that? Sadly, no, I don’t think I have. As I look back, I think there have been many times when I used this blog more as an escape for my muddled thoughts or as a means for venting my frustrations, uncertainties and doubts, than for what I really intended the blog to be for.

What do you envision for your blog now?  I still feel this can be a way for me to contribute in a meaningful way.  Ultimately, that is still what I want.

What will be different from now on? In the past I believe my writing lacked focus. I wrote about anything and everything under the sun. Moreover, I believe there were many times when I didn’t write about the things that really mattered to me. I plan to change that.

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full disclosure?

I’ve been thinking a lot about making my Blog public. But I’ve had a hard time deciding. On one hand, I would love for my blog to be able to reach more people so I could share with them the things I write here. I’m sure I’m not the only person who could benefit in some way from the detailed accounts of what I live and experience.

Even if just to make them laugh.

Or to make them realize how thankful they should be for not being as being as weird as me :P

On the other hand, I have to admit that I’m pretty honest about everything on this blog. I bear my heart and soul. There’s no topic I haven’t gone into on this thing. In fact, I use it more than my journal!

Maybe it would not be wise to make it public? Maybe some things are better left as they are?

I don’t know.

What good is my blog if no one knows it exists and cannot read it?

If a tree falls in the forest, but there is no one there to hear it, does it make a sound?

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Day 4

I finished my pre-fasting phase last week. It gave me hope to have been able to go 7 days on a raw foods diet while being mindful about cutting down my overall food intake as well as increasing my water intake. This period of time is supposed to help you lots during your first week of liquid fasting, which allegedly is the hardest.

Today is day 4 of nothing but veggie and fruit juices (and some veggie broths).

When I started this, I planned to go on nothing but fruit and veggie juices during the first week and then incorporate broths the second week, and finish by drinking nothing but broths the third week. However, I think I’m going to reevaluate my approach. Broths are really wonderful in the afternoon. They seem to really hit the spot and at this time of the day, my body seems to crave the broths much more than the juice. So… I’m choosing to listen to my body and do what it’s telling me. As of now, I’m choosing to incorporate broths in addition to the juices. Though I haven’t decided whether or not I will still carry out the third week on just broths alone.

My experience with juice fasting thus far is this:

I haven’t experienced the extreme hunger pains I was warned about. Not really. But I have noticed that I am the hungriest right before bed. But interestingly enough, I wake up not hungry at all. I drink a big glass of water and I can go up to two hours before feeling the tingling sensation of hunger. Weird right?

However, I have been experiencing some extreme sugar cravings! It was so bad during day two that I finally caved and popped a piece of gum in my mouth for a few minutes. I had read warnings about chewing gum while fasting and it said that it would only make you hungrier and trigger certain digestive enzymes in your stomach that could cause some discomfort. Which is why I made sure to chew it for only a few minutes. Interestingly to note is that, one again, the cravings were the worst at night. Why is that!? Could the cravings be more mental than physical? I don’t know. Nevertheless, I did anticipate sugar withdraws to be the biggest hurdle for me to overcome.

During day three I experienced very little hunger. Which I’m choosing to take as a good sign? Maybe my pre-fasting phase is really paying off??

I haven’t experienced being lightheaded or fatigued or any of the detox symptoms I read warnings on. I’ve actually felt quite good, energized and happy :) Not sure how to interpret that. However… I have been breaking out like crazy. Which is not common for me. I usually have nice, clear skin. May this be attributed to certain toxins being disposed of? (I hope so!) Or just the result of no exercise?

Other than that, I’m patiently waiting for all the other signs of detox to begin manifesting.

Lastly, my faith in my ability to carry this out is steadily growing. I really think I can pull this off :)

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Note

I took some time off from writing in my blog. 7 months to be exact. What can I say. Life was good and busy and blogging fell to the bottom of my priority list. However, since I have tons of free time on my hands right now (I’m waiting for my visa to be processed so I can serve a full time mission in England), I’ve decided to take up the daunting task of going back and filling in what I failed to write during this little blogging hiatus. The important things that took place at least. It’ll take some time, I know, but don’t be surprised when posts suddenly start popping up dating back to 2010 :)

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Joshua 1:9

Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.

April is soon here. Two months left and I still do not know what will come next. Right now, I feel as though I am living day-to-day. More than living, I’m surviving. Time is passing me by in a flash. The weeks are all a blur and it feels as though each day ends before it begins.

I might sound discouraged, but I’m not. I think I’m just tired, but I’m not sure of what exactly. I feel like I’m waiting. I catch myself waiting for something… searching for something… but I cant put my finger on it. Kind of like when you are leaving someplace and you cant shake the feeling that you are forgetting something, but you don’t know what?

yeah, its like that.

There is a quote by Gordon B. Hinckley on my mirror. I’ve had it for 8 years. I cut it out of a Sunday newsletter back when I attended Anaheim 1st ward. It says, the lord cannot guide a man if he does not know which way he wants to go.

I’m not sure where I want to go. I think that’s the problem.

However, as I read Samuel 1:9 this past Sunday I was reminded that the lord is always with me. And if he is with me, who can be against me? No one, not even myself. And this is key, for I truly believe I am my own worst enemy.

be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed. Thanks for the reminder. I’m trying!

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happy One year!

Another summer has come and gone, and although summer 08 was not as extreme as summer 07, it still had it’s highlights. Besides… I think it will be PRETTY DARN hard to top last years summer adventure ;-) Anyways..

This summer was spent getting in touch with myself again. Discovering the gratifying feeling that comes form hard work. Re-discovering the beauties and wonders of nature. Remembering just how lovely and NECESSARY it is to have time to yourself, by yourself and with no one there but yourself. Re-connecting with the things you love, but don’t necessarily make a priority throughout the hectic school year. Enjoying the length of the day. Waking up early. Having a routine. Taking siestas in the sun while laying on the grass. Sitting beneath a tree and reading a good book. Going on hikes while listening to EFY music. Picking berries. Having picnics with your best friend. Daily exercise. Quick swims in the lake on your one hour lunch break. Running in the rain. Talking to yourself. Writing in your journal. Singing in the kitchen. Being lazy. Being productive. Being yourself: the version of yourself you really enjoy being. Thats summer. Beautiful. Long. Rainy. Sunny. Sleepy. Natural. Fleeting…

going, going, gone.

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Back on the wagon

I recently received an e-mail from Leo, a friend whom I met in Jönköping, but is now living in England where he is studying to become a Bioscientist (?) Anyways, in this e-mail he sent me the link to his blog  http://ltotheeo.wordpress.com/ , which I quickly clicked on and spent the next 15 or so minutes reading some of his posts; some quirky, some funny but most were just informative in a way that allowed you to see what his everyday life is like. Like an everyday snapshot.

My friends and family (especially my family) popped in to my head. They constantly ask me when I will begin blogging again (last time I blogged on a constant basis was during my summer backpacking trip to Europe). And I certainly have not forgotten the constant, often times nagging reminders from my Dad… “KitziiiIIIiiiaaa, don’t be lazy, write something once in a while! We want to know what you are up to! Write monthly letters! Start a new blog Post pictures! yaddda yadda yadda…” You get the idea :p

The funny thing is, It’s not that I dont like to blog, because it’s the complete opposite! I actually LIKE to blog every now and then… So why don’t I do it? Well, the problem is blogging in Spanish. In order for the majority of my family members to actually READ what I write, I have to do it in Spanish, and for me – that´s a major hassle! It takes me twice as long to write and once it’s finished, I have to proof read it and make sure I don’t sound like the Spanish illiterate person that I am :o

SO as it often is with life… you can’t always have everything you want and you most definitely can’t please the masses, which is why I have decided to hop back on the blogging wagon, but this time, in English =) Friends and family in California will be pleased, family and friends in Mexico… take this as an opportunity to brush up on your English. That, or start looking for an English-Spanish translator (BTW here is a good site that’s free http://www.freetranslations.com/  )

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